It's been almost a month since I posted last. Partly because I haven't been sitting in isolation at work and haven't felt comfortable to post when so many more people can see my screen. Partly because I've been busier at work. Partly because when I turn on the laptop at home it's to either do an … Continue reading Post 425 – Oh my
Day 424 – On completion
Not finishing listening to a podcast, or reading or writing an article, or some other project is so liberating!
Post 423 – Plodding
Power is useful to me to achieve something, but not in and of itself. I have often been in situations where I have responsibility but no authority. That is incredibly frustrating for me, it defeats my ability to achieve, or makes it so difficult that the achievement is outweighed by the politics.
Post 422 – Urgh
This too shall pass.
Post 421 – Perfect. Of course
My perfectionism is internalised. I have to be perfect. I have to get it right first time. If there is feedback or someone asks for something to be changed, then it's my fault, I did it wrong, I made the wrong choice etc etc etc. I wasn't perfect.
Post 420 – Hangover
I had 1 glass of wine with dinner last night and today I feel like I had 4.
Post 419 – Becoming more myself
I saw a naturopath and was treated with a combination of a 'biofeedback system', and supplements. The practitioner told me he often received feedback from his clients that they 'feel more themselves' after the treatment. I didn't really understand what that meant at the time but let it go and wondered if I would feel … Continue reading Post 419 – Becoming more myself
Post 418 – Happiness
I few years ago I went full-happiness and ended up depressed and medicated. I used to think I was 'optimistic' and 'positive' and that was 'better' than being 'pessimistic' and 'negative', but I realise now that I was using that as a way to deny the difficult stuff, my failures and the times I didn't get what … Continue reading Post 418 – Happiness
Post 417 – Telling a story
Each time I tell this story I tweak it because I can think of a clearer way to say it, or to better fit the context of that conversation. I'm really starting to enjoy it.
Post 416 – Of course
When I stop, everything else starts to flow.