He asked if I was sure, and I very boldly told him that’s why I’d asked to my house. A few months later, as a number of different circumstances aligned, I ask suggested he move in. I didn’t ask, more like sold him on the concept.
I've always believed that coincidences have a reason or a message of some sort and now I'm seeing them ore and more my gut feeling, or intuition gets stronger. Over the last few months of actively praying and spending more time reading about and attending Orthodox Christian services, I have indeed started to hear my intuition.
Just because I find self-analysis-improvement-growth-help etc fascinating and rewarding, doesn't mean everyone or anyone else is into it. But when add that to my middle child, possible child of a narcissist, boundary lacking habit of taking responsiblity for others, and mix in a dash of medical infertility and boom - I am that scrambled egg woman.
I’m afraid that I keep letting these opportunities go by, and I’m afraid that I do that because I’m afraid that I don’t know which one really is the better option. I’m also afraid that even if I did know which is the better option, I’m not taking it out of fear. Fear of the practical implications, of other people’s reactions, of the discomfort, of other’s opinion of me changing for the worse, fear that it won’t be any better, and on and on.
I gave up trying to multi-task when I read research that says it takes 15 minutes to recover from an interruption. And that’s what multi-tasking feels like to me, being constantly interrupted.
I’ve been studying Buddhism for a few years, and though I’ve never had trouble accepting that reincarnation is possible, I’ve never quite gotten to the magical, mystical Mt Meru and endless oceans of Buddhas to pray to.
As my mind wandered during meditation, the realisation of how ill-suited that work would be gentle came to me. Quietly, gently and solidly. A new experience of feeling something instead of rushing to do something. Being.
Now Prtg looks back for Hotel Manager and he’s not there. She looks in the lobby and can’t find him, she’s disappointed and looks back in to the ball room but decides not to go in. She goes out to the terrace to be alone and finds him there as well. They smile awkwardly, and then dance together on the terrace. He asks if it’s ok to dance with the boss, she laughs and says she’s never been the boss before and hopes he will give her lots of help.
3 suspects, all cleared by alibis So what next? Police woman asks Protagonist to tell her what she noticed at the discovery site. Protagonist says she saw sawdust and drag marks. Police woman agrees. Confirms the sawdust came from the train station work room. Local Historian confirms his alibi, so does Vineyard Manager.
ALIBI: Police woman interrogates Bride & Victim’s boyfriend. They were together at the time of the murder, but don’t want to confess. Groom walks in on Bride’s interrogation, she is using his as her alibi. He says she’s lying. She wasn’t with him and knows she was with the victim’s partner, the groom saw them kissing in the ballroom after they’d finished taking photos.