I have a strange feeling that I'm at a turning point, and I don't know what's around the corner. What ever it is, being able to reflect for a second before I react will only be helpful. That's the only thing in my control.
It’s times like this that I actually feel grown up. Like I’m an adult with a 3 dimensional life. Not like I’m an imposter who’s faking it in public and almost like the toys in Toy Story, but in reverse, that when I’m alone I flop and become inanimate.
I thought I had lunch in the fridge at work but I didn't so I got adventurous in the food court. (That's either the saddest sentence ever, or an accurate reflection of city life.)
Sharing good news or our darkest thoughts with the hope of lightening our own load, and possibly even encouraging others, but with no exception of the outcome is a reasonable, gentle form of self-expression.
I'm always thinking about the ends of a spectrum or which point I'm at along it, but I rarely feel like I'm in the middle. Maybe this is contentment?
This developing awareness of the connection between my internal and external, physical and emotional worlds is fascinating. It's all so chicken-and-the-egg. Is the awareness of this energy fueling the fascination, or is the fascination fuelling the energy?
... lemon difficult' as Ollie Reeder would say. I'm attempting a birthday gift for my husband. It's not going well. He doesn't like his birthday or gifts. Each year I give him something modest on the day and wish him 'Happy 9th of July'. I also don't think a big hoo-hah needs to be made … Continue reading Day 357 – ‘Difficult, difficult…
I am crackers. Crackers in the self-destructive, lacking restraint, doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome way.
And this is how I get behind in these posts. Though this says Day 351 it's probably about 370 days since I started this 'write for 10 minutes every day' blog. Ooops. Life gets in the way. Even on the days I don't write, I think I'm more reflective and less reactive which is a … Continue reading Day 352 – Cool
How can I make goals and take steps to improve my situation if I can't even imagine what better might look like. I can imagine for an hour or so, then I get scared and defeated and give up, telling myself 'that only happens to other people, it won't happen for me'.